Thursday, February 28, 2008

Drink it up

Drinking on a week night is so la. I am waitin to get up for KARAOKE! So excited!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Quarterlife Crisis

Seriously? Did someone read all the blogs, watched all the video-blogs and talked to too many emo-ish life-questioning-career-starting-idealist-twenty-somethings that populate the show "Quarterlife". They even stole our slang from John Mayer's song (a deep track "Why Georgia?") and related it as the title...c'mon.

It might be a quarter-life crisis/
Or just the stirring in my soul

Despite the show, I find myself at a crossroads or...just stopping the journey long enough to notice how far I have come and how far I really have left to go.

I just quit my job. I quit. I phrased it in the sense that I was "moving on" and finding another position that fit where I want to go.

I have this paralyzing fear about what I've done. I hid in the security that working for a steady boss had. I was the one person on the show that didn't have to worry about whether or not I was going to have a job the next week...annnd then I didn't have a job. I must say, I wasn't panicked when I didn't have a job...I was panicked when I quit. Is that weird?

I'm at the point where I'm between the grief stages of Depression and Acceptance. I'm half excited, but probably more nervous than anything. It may not be a good idea for me to watch any reality shows between now and when we start shooting or I really get busy and am done with Greg's stuff.

OHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man....I'm drinking with Shannon us at Michael's at 9:30pm.

Monday, February 25, 2008


The first part of this is an interview with Bill Hader from SNL (hilarious!) and the second part is Ukele? Seriously? Can we go back to the german light-laser show or even ring spinging? I loved that.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Under my umbrella

I love walking in the rain when its a little chilly. And of course umbrella plays on my ipod. I really need to find the right blend of bar and coffee shop with decent wifi to hang out at and get work done at. i miss the pub for this purpose. Oh i miss college no wait that was expensive! Nevermind :)

Tuesday, February 19, 2008


Where would we be without secrets?

There are so many things we start to tell each other or never tell each other. Little white lies and secrets.

Sometimes there are things we don't think someone needs to know either about us, something we did, something they did, or an event that happened. Either way it goes, secrets are secrets.

It can just be the act that totally crushes someone else.

Facebook and I

I have this love-hate relationship with Facebook and all it's friendliness.

I love that I am able to keep tabs on people. But at the same time, it's not always a good thing to be able to do. Sometimes it just reminds you about events you weren't invited to or something you were left out of.

It just ends up reminding me of things I didn't want to be reminded of. Things, people, relationships I would otherwise like to forget, and would be able to if it wasn't there, staring me in the eye. Damn facebook.
Damn it man.

Sometimes Technology is not such a good thing for someone with my active imagination. Ya know?

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Modern Art and the Bad Day

Today was one of the worst days I've had in a while.

Not because of anything that really happened...but just because of my mental state. I could not pull it together today. I broke into tears talking things out with my roommate.

The thing that took me out of myself for a few hours this afternoon was the free public weekend at the LACMA's new Contemporary Art building BCAM (Broad Contemporary Art Museum). It was amazing. I really wanted to take pictures of everything, but of course they don't let you do that.

When you walk into the gallery on the third floor, the first thing you see is this LARGE statue of a blue, mirrored, balloon dog. It made me laugh.
Thank you Jeff Koons.

Seeing some original Andy Warhol and Roy Lichenstein was incredible. For some reason, I didn't expect to be able to as blown away by seeing the iconic pop art I'd seen in magazines or textbooks. Did you know there are pencil marks on Lichenstein's paintings? There are little pencil outlines where he meant to put the clouds, or where a tear should be. That blew me away, to see how they start.

I will post photos up here of some of the outdoor sculptures.

I opened a NetFlix account tonight.

Last night, I yelled affirmations at myself for an hour.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Valentine's Day

Yes, I am a bitter single woman.

Yes, I wouldn't be bitter if I had a rose in my hand. But I don't, so I'm going to be bitter at love for one day.

Well...that day was yesterday, and it was awful.

If I'm single and it's Valentine's Day please, let's not bring it up. Let's be upbeat, positive and not talk about relationships or draw attention to the fact we're single, unless it's in a singles-power kind of way.
None of this "I'm so lonely, I'm single, I just want someone to hold me" business.

Because have friends. Go be with people if you are lonely. Go do something, don't whine to me about it. PLEASE don't whine to me about it. I get it. You're single, you're lonely...I am too. Unless you're going to suggest we get together and be single and lonely together, shut the hell up.



And let's not be rude and ignore each other? Ok?

Some people were just born with asshole behavioral implants.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Congratulations Reveille...

The production company where I started working this past summer is now this juggernaut, for lack of a better term. It's huge. They know how to mint money over money and then not spend it on programming (but that's besides the point).

Leading U.K shingle Shine, run by Elisabeth Murdoch, has confirmed the acquisition of U.S. producer Reveille is in the bag...

...As a result of the purchase, Reveille’s distribution arm will be re-branded as Shine Reveille.

The acquisition of Reveille makes Shine, whose investors include Sony, uniquely placed to extend its activities in the U.S.

Elisabeth Murdoch
...yes daughter of Rupert Murdoch...and apparently a screwed businesswoman. I am so jealous of her and the gumption she seems to have.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Sometimes LALA Land kills me

job title: Producer

job start: February 16 job end: September 13
total weeks: 30

show name:
network: major cable

company: confidential
location: LA with Travel

job description:

looking for experienced Producer/Associate Producer with experience working with wild animal parks and experience in South Africa or similar. PLEASE DO NOT REPLY IF YOU DON'T HAVE EXPERIENCE with at least lions and tiger or bears.

Start immediately - end approx Sept 2008

Must be able to travel

Amazing...just amazing. I think I am totally qualified for this position...NOT.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

I couldn't do it

I had everything typed in. My credit card number was already in the box, the security code was already there, my billing address and my shipping choice chosen. I just couldn't do it.

I couldn't watch that money go to something that might be a little frivolous.

Especially when I have bigger and better things I could spend that money on.

Uh...sometimes I hate that concerts here cost so much.

Maybe I'll just go to a movie. Oh man...that was hard.