Saturday, April 26, 2008

Monday, April 21, 2008

This is Me...now.


I asked Shannon if she'd write a blog with me and her response was "You don't even update your OWN blog!"

"Sure I do."

"With 2 sentence posts that make no sense!"

"Yeah...that's because I TXT them in...not everyone has a blackberry." Or something like that is how it went.

Ok...here's a post.

Geez. :)

Anyone who knows me well enough (has lived with me, or been around me a lot) knows that I have high highs and low lows. I get really super excited about somethings, like when a new boy/man flirts with me or asks me out. When something encouraging in the slightest bit happens I jump off the deep end in my excitement about it. I obsess. Seriously, I do.
It's a problem.

But then, it also has a tendency to run the other way. I also get really down about things. I don't really (or well...I hope not, and try not to) let it get to the point where I get frustrated at other people about whatever happened. It always becomes something I internalize. Something that has more to do with how I function on the inside than outside (most of the time).

When I obsess, I like to have a little control over the situation, so that things will go well and I'll be able to work it out to my favor.

Except, most of the time that isn't true.
I don't get to have any control over what happens. I can't control a guy not liking me, or not getting that really awesome job.
That's the part that I tend to obsess over. If I had only done this, or said that, or been like this, the meat of the matter is that it's done over and in the past. Nothing I can do to change how things worked out, it was completely out of my hands.

Something else I think that says something about me.
I wear converse, I wear sneakers and flats mostly.
I have 5 pairs of heals...a red pair, an orange pair, a black peep-toe pair, a purple peep-toe pair and a bronze pair. All sexy pumps. I don't wear them. They stay in my closet.
Someday, someday I'll take them out for a spin. With the exception of the red pair, I haven't worn any of those shoes for an entire day, let alone an entire event. I always find a reason to wear some other pair I have.
I think this says something about me.

This:
Made me laugh today

This:
Got me excited today.

Friday, April 18, 2008

The cause of death

California has 600plus people on death row but the main cause of death there is old age not execution